The feeling of...

loneliness.

Its been 3 days that i have not been scolded or yelled at by my parents. 

Yea, because im being a lone wolf now, silencing myself from the world and from them. Its a good thing, i guess, since im not being scolded.

Like i said before, i have been scolded at recently for things that i have not done or said. So i decided from that day onwards, i am not gonna speak or show any emotions towards my family.

It worked.... and i survived 3 days of no scolding.

Though Dad is suspicious of my act and has been trying to ask me what's going on but i ignored the question.

Throughout all the years, i have always been tough~ tough on myself, tough on the outside kinda thing. But the truth is, im never tough, inside.

You may see me chatting away happily or maybe even just happily chilling out. Well, looks can deceive you. Sometimes(most of the time) im just too down to let my emotion show.

Why waste energy and time letting people know you're down and having them console you? Why bother at all actually? I rather keep it all in here and suppress them. Why worry others when you can keep it all to yourself right?

Anyways, im not here to bring down the atmosphere. Been busy with artworks lately, especially for CF artbook and my own stuffs.

However, most of my stuffs are just doodles cos i have to focus more on the CF artbook.

Also, i've finished Kore wa Zombie desu ka, and am obsessed with Hellscythe and Seraphim. They're soooo pwetty and owhsome. (>3<) So here's a doodle i did on them.

rough sketch

final (1 hr doodle)

Wanted to try drawing characters with specs. Thought i give it a try.(30mins doodle)

BTW, am now playing the 3rd Birthday by SquareEnix. So yea, do you mind? shooshoo~ *runsbacktogame* XD

lotsa love, L.

CGD Final Project

The abstract design for my CGD class's final project.
Its not the full version yet... its supposed to be a combination of a sports game with a vector design. So this is the vector design.
The sports that my lecturer chosen for me was tennis. Thus, im trying to combine both designs into one. Kinda feeling a headache now. DX
After the initial design is done, we have to use Illustrator to create the whole pic. Sobs... cant use photoshop. It'll be so much easier if i could photoshop. hehe~

Moar clouds pls

Ohaiyo... i have no class today so i took some time out of assignments to do my own work.
Not really an artwork though, more like a practice for myself.
I really suck at painting backgrounds so i started with practicing some clouds/sky background.
No reference, just out of curiousity-ness of how a cloud should be done.
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What do ya think? Epic fail right? LoL~ Am trying to improve here, so pls bear with my ugly lousy craps for now...T_____T

epic FAIL dots

i feel like killing myself... like now~
remember my design class assignment i have to draw a pic using only dots and circles? well, u can officially shoot me in the head *headshot*
Dahlah i already artblock, now when the inspiration flow already, still not satisfied. 
If im not satisfied with it, i cant outline it with my artliner. T_______T



1st initial sketch was done in college during class when we had the time, but but but i also didnt know what to draw. My friend busy on her iphone looking for inspirations. LoL
The only thing that flowed thru my head at that time was wonderland... candies, teacups, cakes etc~


So yea, i drew them out regardless of~ just in case the lecturer pass by and ask how come havent draw anything yet. teehee~ XD
Final decision? NOT SATISFIED WITH IT!! Go home and think of other things!



The 2nd sketch was only done yesterday, getting inspirations from everywhere, everything.
*ta-da* this came out but im still not 100% satisfied with it... not really. OTL
I know lecturer only said dots and circles but if im not mistaken, i remember her saying something about swirls or teardrop shape also can, and lines if possible but not too much. 
So what-ever, i just draw only. If she's not satisfied, meh, redo again lo. DX
And yep, the 2nd sketch became more of an abstract pic than dots/circles pic. 0___0


p/s: am de-stressing myself by learning how to play Cendrillon on the piano, but still stressful cos blardy hard to play. So many notes. DX

title-less dot dot dot

Life is not peaceful at the moment.
My grandma is diagnosed with a tumor in her brain. Why, of all people, of all the bad people, u chose my grandma to be the victim? 
I dont see any bad guys out there being diagnosed with anything, they're out there... living a healthy life, enjoying their life... WTH~ and my grandma has to stay in the hospital and suffer?
My grandma doesnt deserve this. I pray everyday that she will get well and i REALLY pray that the ops go well.

Life is unfair, God is unfair.
nuff said.



Life is so colourless to me right now. I dont even have the mood to add colours to my art. 
Am also busy, busy running up and down the hospital day and night.
I dont mind... seriously, if it takes for my grandma to get well, i dont mind.

Well, if God exist, i really need U to listen to my prayer.

Beat of an Angel

Hihi...its Yuri from Angel Beats! Have u watch the anime yet? Its awesome, quickly go and watch.
Sketch this on com. So lazy to sketch on me sketchbook. XD

I think it took about 20mins only. LoL~ Sketched really quick, did not even clean the lines.

Since it was so dull, i thought i coloured her eyes. *sparkles* Yada yada... added textures and ta-da!

La Musique est ma vie

OMG OMG... so stress. *pullshair* Practical exam tomorrow ne, someone shoot me pls.
*de-stress by drawing, de-stress by drawing* Finished. Aahh, much better. ^^
Here's a quick 1hr doodle to de-stress myself from all that scales and appregios.
"La Musique est ma vie" means music is my life in French. XD
Yes, i ♥ French, Japanese & Italian language.

Insecure-ness

ISH... am having my piano practical exam next Wednesday. Argh, i still feel so unprepared. What if i fail and have to retake it again? OMG... sense of insecure coming. *facepalms*
The pieces are ok but its the scales im worried about. I hate scales... seriously.


Nothing to post.... um, so here's a random still life doodle.



I was bored and my mum was cutting strawberries so i decided to snap a pic before the strawberries were eaten. haha~
So lame-ness appeared and this is what came out of it. (>___<) CRAP right? Doesnt even look delicious to eat. TAT Whatever, 1st time painting still life on com. Mostly use pencil XD Went for TOA registration today. Was freaking nervous cos have to draw portrait drawing and some English test to test your level of English. Im not worried about the English test at all.. that one "sap-sap water" only. Its the portrait one im worried about.XD

|Yummy|

Mum came home with the newly launched of doughnuts from BigApple, called "Donashi".

Its still doughnuts but in a sushi form. So kawaii~ I was coincidentally reading about it on the newspaper and mum actually came home with the 18pack. Yosshh~

Prob is that u wont know what flavour it is. This is a sushi u cant judge by its appearance. There's actually cream inside in which flavour u wont know. [if u're eating it the 1st time]

 

I didnt know about it so i took those that has the choc on the outside but on the inside, i kept getting vanilla cream, lemon meringue and strawberry cream. Urgh... so sad. I ate like 7 of them and none was choc, i gave up. TAT

|mum brought back this cute lil candy, i just had to take a pic. ^^|

Went for supper with Jin, godmum & Vy. Everyone was craving for some satay of of a sudden.

It had been so long since i had satay... yum, so delicious. Chit-chatted till 11pm...

Went home and catch my UraBoku. OMG... have i told u about UraBoku? I love that anime to bits. If u're an seiyuu otaku, u should know why its important to love this anime. XD

Drawing loads of fanarts lately but i practically have no idea whatsoever how to draw them. *bangsheadagainstwall*

I did a quick 20min doodle of my fav guy from UraBoku, Tsukumo. *fangirlscream* OMG, me freaking love him so much.... like i said, if u're an seiyuu otaku, u'll know why. Gya~ ^^

Speaking of anime, just got some list of the new Jun-July 2010 anime:

1. Sengoku Basara 2

2. Kuroshitsuji 2

3. Nurarihyon no Mago

4. Legend of Legendary Heroes

5. Shukufuku no Campanella

I cant wait for Kuro2. hayaku ne~~

Title was originally Monoshitsuji cos its no longer CielxSebby, thus called The White Butler. But i guess the director didnt wanna spoil it. hehe~

In case u're wondering who the new butler and master is... their names are Claude Faustus [butler] and Alois Trancy [master]. I have to admit, i love the new master too. *squeals*

♥♥♥

usagi-tan

errr... this was SUPPOSE to be a quick doodle, but but but it ended up taking longer than i expected. *epicphail*

I planned to finish it within an hour and a half but i think i spent about 3 hours on it, with some changes here and there. @__@

I guess it turned out ok. I dunno... its only my 2nd time doing a line-less art. It kinda sucks, i really ENVY those who can just start from scratch, w/o any lineart to guide them.

One of a deviant frm dA made me admire her even more after i watched her video on her colouring. Holy shyt, everything was from scratch. After watching it, i seriously feel like killing myself. DX

Oh and btw, i did this in Painter, not photoshop. hehe~

smexy Ken'ichi Matsuyama

OMG... my smexy Ken'ichi Matsuyama-kun is acting in another anime-turn-movie again. Its called Kaiji.

The movie is called Kaiji: The Ultimate Gambler, which also stars Death Note's Tatsuya Fujiwara-kun as the main chara. *droolsfromtoomuchhotness*

The story is about the art of gambling. The synopsis is kinda long and im too lazy to shorten it, so yea. go google it k? 

Ken'ichi-sama is acting as Sahara. I cant wait, i wanna watch. Who wanna accompany me? 

Also checked online that Ken'ichi is acting in few more movies like Kamui Gaiden and Norwegian Wood.

I really miss Ken'ichi's acting. I miss him so much from DN. He was like... the best ever L. No one can pull off what he did.

I have also been re-watching DN1, DN2 and L Change the World again. I think its my 7/8 time watching them. XD

I also did a quick doodle of L in Painter. Finally, something besides Photoshop. LoL~

Diff style right? Cos i absolutely love Painter's watercolour brush and blender brush. ♥

New ID

Hey y'all
Am just dropping by to drop my new ID for the blog and dA page.
Its suppose to be me. Yea, whatever, ignore the elf ears if u can. XD I love elf ears, so sue me.
Well, this isnt all yet. I have not finished the "Full Profile" page. So be patient my peeps. ^^
Its time to change a new one, the old one is looking kinda.... urgh~ ROFL
BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear uncle Ronald. (<3)

Lenalee D-Gray Man

Hihi, its been quite long since i updated anything right? Well, im super busy with 3 fanarts at the moment.
Unfortunately, i wont be telling u who im drawing cos it'll spoil the surprise. XD


CNY is over... and im so sad. 
U know... CNY celebrations arent getting popular or fun anymore cos the people nowadays are slowly forgetting about their roots and traditions, which is a blardy sad thing.
For me, i love CNY and i love seeing happy moments that are spent among family and friends, shopping, the fireworks and the CNY songs. It all feels so ALIVE!
But i guess the people now are too Western-ised to actually realize these things. I hope these important traditions will not die out. [wake up people]


Aunt from UK went back on Sunday, which is the last day of CNY. We all decided to sent her to the airport. Did i mention i hate goodbyes? Well, yea, i really hate goodbyes. So dont call me if u're gonna leave the country cos i wont be there to send u. ROFL~


Thats all to blog i guess... i shall drop a doodle then.

Its a quick sketch of Lenaless from D-Gray Man. Took about 15mins to doodle on CorelPainter.
I did not expect to draw Lenalee cos i was just sketching and it turn out to look like Lenalee in the end. LMAO... Ya, sometimes i dunno what im sketching really, i just go with the flow~~~
Pls ignore her ugly uniform. Its so hard with all the details and stuffs. T_____T

busy bee #2

Sorry for the lack of updates. Busy busy me with lots lots of assignments.
Its the last sem for the year and of course, for the rest of my business education life.
And then, the horror... working!! NOOOO... i hate working. XD im serious~


Am dumping a advanced Christmas artwork before i head to SG for the hols.


Opting for another style. I think it looks weird. I should go back to my normal style.
Enjoy the holidays.... seasons greetings. ^^


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Comic Fiesta 09 here i come... not cosplaying though.
No costume, dunno who to cosplay as. XP

Good Luck

Hi, a quick drop by to drop a quick artwork that i did in half hour.
Nothing special, just felt like colouring something for those who are sitting for their SPM examination today.
My godbro, Jin is sitting for the exam too.
So here's wishing him & all the students out there all the best!! ^^

OC Gwen

Dropping another crappy artwork. XD

Its not new, u've seen her... in b/w sketch. teehee~ felt like colouring her.

Yea, i used it as a thanks for 50hits in dA. Pls check my dA site to get more pageviews. Onegai shimasu... ^^

Was going for a speed paint look. Epic fail i guess.

Speed painting w/o outlines is hard, everything starts from scratch.

But am trying an easier way to make it look like speed paint. LMAO~

Pls ignore the grass... i dunno what to do for the bg. (>___<)
Vocaloid fanart coming up... *woot*

G.I.Joe-tastic

Watched G.I.Joe with daddy and bro. Yay, beloved Channing Tatum.
In case u're wondering where u've seen him before, here's some recap... Step Up 1 & 2, She's The Man, Fighting & Public Enemies.
Have loved him since Step Up 1.

Movie - awesome.
Duke - HOT & charming
The Ninjas aka Storm Shadow & Snake Eyes - awesome & cool
Night Raven the jet plane - crazily tech cool
The Joes' suits/armours - stupendous

Yep, thats all im telling about the movie. Dropped by Guardian to buy mask but it was out of stock.
Nvm, went to Watsons and same thing happened... OUT OF STOCK. WTH?
If everyone here is dying and needs the mask, how? Everywhere no stock. ISH~

hmm... all my favourite childhood cartoons are all becoming a huge major movies. Eg dragonball, Transformers, G.I.Joe... What's next?
I wonder if they will produce a SailorMoon movie? mwahaha~ who knows? ^___^
But pls find Asia actors instead of Americans one... if not it'll be spoiled! Before i go... quick lazy speed paint. OC created - name RinRin.

Speed Paint

Speed paint of Blossom. Too lazy to do the lineart, so i decided to just speed paint it.
I think its unique in its way... w/o lineart, just the sketch part.

Also, just browse thru LeeHom M'sia fan site and guess what? Sony BMG is releasing LeeHom's Music-Man concert on DVD. Yay.. it has been long waited by the fans. ^^ *jumpsup&dwn*
And the DVD comes with a limited edition gift...

ta-da, its so kawaii no? i cant stand it. I MUST HAVE IT!!


And here's another one... Diff version. It comes in a set of 6.
Plus, its RM200 for all 6. I wanna buy it so badly too... Yet again, so cute. Why? Why? Why does it have to be soooo cute??? >____<

first CG

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR BAN!

Yup, its true... like the title said... PRESENTING... *drumroll pls* =___+"

My first offical Photoshoped artwork... im proud of it. *sniffs* and i dedicate this artwork to my dear kai-mei Ivy [god sis]. I hope u like it, prays that u love it. rawr~
Its ok if u dont like it, i'll just whack u only... XD. I spent 2 days on it cos i used a mouse to colour. Yep, not easy w/o a graphic tablet, thats why i need one... PRONTO!


Blossom from Powerpuff Girls. A random ranart, did not expect it to come out like that.


Another fanart of Luna Online. This here is a thief chara.
Wanted to draw a bow-girl as well but it failed. =c


Um... trying out a 'shota' kinda chara. Im not sure if she fits...
'shota' is a chara which is not in max height, its a big bigger than chibi not too big. Get it? XD

OMG, am taking Theory exam next year. Should i? I have no idea what im doing... seriously.
Harmonising melodies? melody writing? yikes... dont understand a thing about them. Maybe i shouldnt go then? *thinksdeply*